Quietly fade

 (Please listen to: Tears of Joy for the full spectrum of emotions...)





"Hey... Naia."
"...hm?"
"Its over..."
"Yes... Finally."
"....I"m so tired."
"Let's rest... for just a little.."



OOOOH MY GODDDDDDD
I'm dying over here. Literally. A small peice.. A big peice! of me is dying.
Souls of Chaos is coming to a close.
I've already had a hell of a time coming to terms with letting go of my all of my characters. They've literally been my inspiration and salvation for the past three years. If I had tough times, and I certainly did with life in general and specifically having my husband be gone most of the time, leaving me living alone. I'm an introvert, but being alone still sucks. But all I had to do was immerse myself into this world and I could forget those negative feelings almost in an instant. With the help of my rp partners, I was able to let out ideas good and bad. I grew in terms of writing and drawing, and as a person in some ways, discovering things and teaching myself things I probably wouldn't have if not for them. I sometimes stayed up until after the sun had risen just because the I HAD to know what happened next. Or tried to sleep then just got right back up and ran to the comp to continue. Allot of times I actually cried. Like, sobbed my eyes out onto by tablet and keyboard.
I'm seriously trying to not cry -atm- ;u; as lame as it might seem to those that dont know the attachment you can have to fictitious characters. These literally are my babies though. It started with just Naia and Dorian, then just branched and branched. I think with each branch I just dug myself deeper and they became more fleshed out and real. Its certainly been incredibly hard trying to let that go.
There were so many things I could have done for my final peice.. I would have loved to have been able to do a huge group picture with all of my characters. They actually branched much further than what I put to apps. Gale, Xiva, Twyla, Emrys, Neri grown up, Leith... But I just dont have the time. It would take forever x'D
Could have done a couple.. Dorian and Aegle were the first... Then Alex and Naia, Tear and Arlen, Ahri and Anil..

But in the end I decided it should end where it started. Dorian and Naia. 
They went through -allot- in the time that I played them. I dont use them as much as I used to, but they will forever be precious to me.. as will all the rest.
The idea came from my Gemini sketch I was supposed to do so long ago x'D. I think the idea still fits them.
And yes. Boobs. There are large boobs there.
Also, this was my first full B/W painting, then colored with layer effects. I feel accomplished really. Though I'm not quire sure if it would have been better or worse had I done the way I usually do it with lines and colors on their own layer and shaded independently.

Either way... Here is to three amazing years of creativity and amazing emotions.